It's All Over
The holidays are drawing to a close and tomorrow is Monday - the start of 8 weeks of pure, serious, gut-wrenching, brain-numbing dentistry to get over 4th year, into the 5th.
The good news is that I had a great time this holidays, so I guess in a sense I'm okay with going back to the life of a dental student again.
I will get through this.
Labels: Dental School
I Tried
I tried to be a better person by giving people multiple chances.
I really shouldn't have bothered.
Labels: Life
It's A Small World...
Went out with my friend's friends.
Friend's Friend: Hey, do you know X?
Me: Omg... X? As in... slightly older than us...quite pretty...X?!
Friend's Friend: Yeah!
Me: Yes I know her!! What made you even think to ask me this question?
Friend: Your accent is
exactly the same as hers.
Me; All Malaysians speak this way though.
Friend: Nope...there's some things that you say...exactly the same!
Me: *dumbfounded*
X is also from Batu Pahat. We were never really close, but we knew the existence of each other.
Do Batu Pahatians have such a distinct accent or is this just coincidence?
Labels: Ramblings
Bees and Flowers
Went over to my friend's house last night and spent a good 1-2 hours asking the Book of Answers random questions. I have to say, the book was pretty harsh on me.
Me: Will I live happily ever after?
Book: Only if you do as you're told.
Me: Should I stay in Melbourne after I graduate?
Book: You must.
However, there were good answers. Me and my friends are probably still gonna be friends after we graduate and my friend's 21st birthday party is going to be the best party
ever.
Yes, we were that bored.
Spent the rest of the night watching Beauty and The Beast, singing along to all the songs and criticizing the beast for being an absolute clueless idiot when it comes to...pretty much
everything.
Me: Should I stay over tonight?
Book: Follow the lead of others.
So I stayed over. In the dark, we talked about various methods of killing people, how bees function and how much work we have to do to survive the next 8 weeks of dentistry.
Life.
Labels: Life
Looking For The Extraordinary
I walk around a corner,
And there I see it -
The extraordinary.
I move towards it,
It beckons, inviting.
I lost it.
Is this an unattainable dream?
Maybe. Who knows?
A mystery.
Labels: Life
Panic Time
So I admit that this year I haven't really been studying as much as I should. Far from it.
Somehow along the way I lost my motivation. I used to be pretty good with keeping up with my work in First Year. Then it just went all downhill from there and now at the end of Fourth Year, I wonder where has all my motivation gone.
I come up with various excuses - 'What's the point of doing well - there's no difference anyway as long as you pass".
"I'll have time later. For now, I want to enjoy life."
Well, there's no more time now. With finals about 5-6 weeks away with something like 10 subjects (if not more) to study by then, I admit I'm starting to panic a little.
Doesn't help that I'm addicted to Facebook and MSN.
In a way I wish my parents were here to give me a good nudge in the right direction. But I'm all on my own now so I guess it's really up to me to nudge myself.
"Be unyielding towards your goal and have faith and trust in yourself that the end will justify the means."- Brian BuchnerLabels: Life
The Risk Of Love
There is a
risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening yourself up to
hurt.
Some people tread slowly through life,
Avoiding the closeness risk brings,
Sidestepping the things they can not understand
Turning away from those who care too much-
Those who care stay too long,
Those who hold too tightly.
There is never an
easy way to love
You cannot approach it cautiously
It will not wait for you to arm yourself.
It does not care if you turn away
It is everywhere, it is everything.
Love is the
greatest of all risks.
It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic
It is unprejudiced and unmerciful.
It strikes the
strongest of mind,
And brings them to their knees in one blow.
Even in the
best of times, love hurts.
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be the other part of
someone else,
Without either of your consent.
But, from the moment it overtakes you,
It hurts worse to be all alone.
The risk of love never depletes;
It grows stronger and more
dangerous with time.
But, it is in the total
surrender of all defense,
That we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive,
No matter what, we truly experience love.
Despite the many things love is not,
Outweighing it all are the things that love is.
Love is
surrender without a loss.
It is a gift without the cost.
It consumes your every thought and desire,
Every breath you take.
It is the fire that fuels you
To do more than pass through life;
It urges you, instead, to
live.
No matter the outcome, having felt love,
You will never be the
same.
It may scar your heart and soul
And leave you only memories of forever.
Or, it may cause every day of your life
To feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, love is worth it. It is worth the risk...
For in all of life,
Love is truly the only risk
worth taking.
-
UnknownLabels: Quotes
Moving
After a long day out with friends, we were speeding down the freeway towards home.
It is a strange feeling - being stationary yet at the same time, seeing the scenery pass by. The feeling of life speeding past and there's nothing I can do about it but enjoy the ride.
Helps that there's some emo music playing in the background.
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause every time we touch, I feel this static.
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause every time we touch, I feel this static.
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.-CascadaI love Melbourne.
Labels: Life
Internationalness
My local friends have formally rated me to be about 6.5 on the scale of internationalness. This includes points for having permed and coloured hair, a fetish for bags, a non-Australian accent, my desire to stay fair instead of tanned and just my general wardrobe.
Any thoughts?
Labels: Life
Being A Girl
"Being a girl is not so much about your destination in life, but choosing the path that leads to a happy journey, filled with good friends and extraordinary moments.
Your personality is a portrait of yourself.
Don't take the mirror too seriously, for true beauty lies within yourself.
Make today colorful.
Keep dreaming - fairy tales can come true."- Patsy GautLabels: Quotes
Quotes
Have decided to start a quote of a day thingamee. Was sifting through my quotes collection and have decided I have enough to last me for...hm...pretty much for the rest of my posting career. I think.
Labels: Life
Dinner Party 1
Last weekend there were 2 dinner parties and we had heaps of fun cooking and
gossiping chatting over it. Pictures courtesy of my friend - because I never bother taking pictures myself.
Souffles in the oven - Me nervously checking to see if the souffles were 'souffle-ing' i.e. rising.
Beef - Some beef thingamee from a Jamie Oliver cookbook. First attempt and it turned out great! Kudos to my friend. The roasted beetroot and pumpkin that went with it was fab.
Salad - Greek salad, if I'm not mistaken.
Winter Solstice Cocktail - Or something along those lines. Had strawberries and cucumber in it. Yummy!
Chocolate Souffle
Spoonful of Chocolate Souffle 
Empty ramekinsThere was also a potato bake that somehow escaped photography - I'm not sure why.
Anyways, had a great time.
Labels: Food
No Longer Am I Todless
I went to David Jones and fell in love with this bag.
Had to have it.
Tod's BensonvilleSorry the photos are bad. I somehow just couldn't manage to do better.
Sigh...happy!
Labels: Shopping
*hmph*
I can't stand know-it-alls.
The end.
Labels: Rants
With This Ring...
I seem to have the uncanny knack of getting the most eccentric patients.
Visit 1Him: Do you like horses?
Me: *innocently* Yes, I love them!
Him: I used to breed horses. Now I just bet on them.
He then invited me to the Melbourne Cup with him. Apparently, he knows all about horses and I should bet on the horses he believes in.
Oookay.
Visit 2He came in bearing a plastic bag. I eyed it suspiciously.
Him: I brought a present for you!
Me: Oh, really? You shouldn't have...
Him: Nonsense...take it! You can open it now.
Me: *opens the bag* .....Booties?
Him: Yeah! My 10 year old friend knitted it. She told me to give it to my girlfriend. I don't have a girlfriend so... here you go.
I thanked him politely. After all, I can appreciate how wonderfully the booties were knitted. Plus, the gesture was sweet - albeit in a freaky way.
Things got increasingly weirder.
Various questions he asked me included what was my favourite drink - "Water." and my favourite gemstone - "I don't really like jewelry." Both bald-faced lies, of course. I love taro milk tea with pearls and marquise cut diamonds are Dental Girl's best friends.
Visit 3He came bearing a
bigger plastic bag. Turns out he had cooked a 'beautiful, wonderfully fresh snapper' especially for me. I thanked him as enthusiastically as I could without betraying the fact that I don't eat seafood. Nay, not only do I not eat it, I abhor it.
Then...
Him: Could you please try this ring on for size? I want to buy you a ring.
Me: ..
.What?!Him: Yes, I want to buy you a present! Do you prefer rubies or diamonds?
Me: !!!!!!!!!!! ...I'm sorry but I can't accept such large gifts.
Him: Why not?
Me: It's not allowed.
Him: Nobody would ever know...and don't worry about the cost. I'm rich!
Me: ....I'm sorry, but I can't accept it. Thanks for the gesture anyway. *clipping on the rubber dam clamp, effectively shutting him up for the next 2 hours while I tried to perform obturation*
Think that's the end? Nooooooope.
He proceded to ask me what my favourite food was so that he could cook dinner for me. "I don't really enjoy eating food... I eat to live, not eat to live." More lies.
He then proceded to ask me when was my lunch. "I don't actually have a lunch hour per se, we just eat as we go along whenever we manage to find some time". Oh dear, the tragic slave driven life of a dental student!
He then told me that I should move in with him to save money on rent. After all, he had 3 spare bedrooms empty. It would cost me nothing! "My parents pay for everything - money is the least of my worries".
I finally complained to my demonstrator at the end of the session. I waited for the advice to come.
None came.
"He
what? Hahahahahahaha. Hahahahahahahahahahhah..... Hey guys? Have you heard? Dental Girl just got a proposal!!'
I grumpily handed my treatment record to the demonstrator to sign off.
He chuckled and wrote in black and white - "Patient proposed."
Geez, thanks for nothing. It wasn't even realllyyyy a proposal.
Post Event OccurencesI gave the fish to one of my groupmates. I got a call later that day...
Him: Dental Girl... you should see what's in this care package!
Me: Why, what's in there? Isn't it some fishy fish?
Him: The fish was individually wrapped... there are lemon wedges all sliced up nicely.... olives, together with
toothpicks wrapped up in some tissue... all separately packaged! Plus there's a banana as well! Do you feel the love???
Me: ...
Him: And! There's something else for you too.
Me: ....
Him: A pair of leopard print fluffy slippers.
Me: .......
You know what's the sad thing? If it had been a guy I had liked, I would have been overjoyed. Instead, all I feel is... nothing.
Labels: Dental School
Hypothetical Situations
My friend has the strangest hypothetical situations to talk about whenever we meet up. I can't remember all of them, but these three stick out in my mind:
1. If you had to lose an eyebrow forever (without pencilling or other ways of simulating one) or an ovary forever, which would you choose?
2. If you had to either kill everybody you don't know in the world or kill only the people you know and love, which would you choose?
3. Would you rather be ignored by everybody in the world as if you did not exist, or would you rather be acknowledged, but verbally abused every time you were?
Tricky. Very tricky.
Labels: Ramblings
Impossible Love
My friend wore this t-shirt to dinner.
It's from Threadless. We thought it was such a sad but adorable design.
The only other impossible love that was impossible in that way that we could think of is love between a fire and a melting ice cube.
Ah me... impossible love.
Labels: Ramblings
Gentlemanliness
I came across an article online with a to-do list for guys on how to be the perfect gentleman. It tickled me so much I'm posting up a few that I particularly like here. Feminists are probably going to have a fit.
1.
Do not spitA lot of men do this almost subconsciously. Spitting is very crude and not too pretty to look at. Do not spit in public unless you want to look like you were raised in a sewer.Ah, how true that is! An acquaintance recently spat onto the road in my presence and I was absolutely appalled. My regard for him pretty much plummeted. I will never look at him in the same light again.
2.
Be punctualPerhaps the greatest sign of respect, which is what a gentleman is all about, is being on time. Having people wait for you is the equivalent of telling them that you don't care about them.I could write whole
posts about how much I feel about this matter.
3.
Always carry a woman's packagesLet's face it; today's women would probably shoot you a puzzled fleeting look, so at least offer to do so. This lets her know you respect her and are courteous enough to inquire as to her comfort.If a girl is clearly struggling, it's the only right thing to do! Put your hours in the gym to good use, people!
4.
Carry a handkerchiefPlan ahead. Have a clean handkerchief in your pocket, especially when you attend a funeral. It's also a great idea to have a hanky handy for a lady friend to dry raindrops or tears.This amuses me, but I have known some guys to still carry hankerchiefs even now.
5.
Walk on the outside of a sidewalkThis allows your lady to be farther from the traffic. This way, if someone is going to be splashed, it will be you, not her. I know, I know... but that's the price to pay if you want to be a gentleman.This one is probably the nicest one that I read. How thoughtful. Also decreases the likelihood of snatch theft. I'd be extremely impressed if a guy did this.
Labels: Ramblings
The Seaweed Is Always Greener...
I spent some time in Borders reading through musical scores of famous Disney music. It was very entertaining. I could sing along to the song in my head and imagine how it would sound like if I had a piano with me.
I realized that
The Little Mermaid is a cartoon that pretty much sums up how people are - the seaweed is always greener in somebody else's lake and what we have is always not enough....we want
more.
I want to be where the people are,
I want to sing, want to see them dancing,
Strolling along down a - what's the word again? - street.
Up where they walk, up where they run,
Up where they stay all day in the sun,
Wondering free, which I could be,
Part of your world...Labels: Ramblings
...
It's over, isn't it?
Labels: Life
To celebrate the end of Term 3 Year 4, we went to Brasserie in Crown to celebrate.
I really really like this restaurant. My first visit here really impressed me and this time it managed to continue to impress.
Interior of restaurant
Bread
Gratin de pomme de terre et poireaux - A gloriously glorified potato bake.
Pomme frites - Fries with tongs to serve!
Potage parmentier, billes de pomme de terre, fondue de poireaux - Potato and leek soup.
Gravlax de saumon de mer de Tasmanie, blinis d'épeautre et crème fraîche, condiments - Salmon.
Filet de daurade en croûte et coulis de chataignes - Snapper
Quatres cuisson sur l'agneau, jus d'un navarin, petits légumes d'hiver glacés - Lamb
Marquise au chocolat, anglaise pistache et sorbet vanille - Chocolate marquise with vanilla sorbet
Baba au Cointreau, la salade d'agrumes, marmelade d'orange amère - Glorified sponge cake served with Cointreau and glazed fruit
Sigh. Love the holidays!!
End of Week 8
I had my Cons exam today and happily managed to pass.
I'm so grateful it's the end of Week 8 Term 3, which means there's only one more day until it's the holidays!!!
Technically speaking, we've been going for 10 weeks, because dents had to start two weeks early. It makes me wonder how I'm going to survive the real working world when I graduate, seeing 10 weeks straight of uni made me feel like dying.
Anyway, I'm just glad Term 3 is over. It's definitely the most challenging term so far in dentistry - although I'm sure next term will be even more testing.
I shall savour the holidays.
Labels: Life
Fuji IX
Nobody told me that one is meant to pack Fuji IX.
I thought you just contoured it. Nobody said anything to me about
packing.
Am I just an idiot or was I really never told this?
Labels: Dental School
Marble Cake
My cooking streak is coming back and today me and my housemate pulled ourselves together and baked a marble cake.
Not bad for someone who has not baked for several months.
Pictures!!
Will try to bake more, take photos more and study more.
:)
Labels: Food
Really?
It still surprises me how some people can act as if I don't exist when my doings are inconsequential to them, yet have the nerve to suddenly act as if they're my best friend when they need something from me.
Suddenly, the wonderful fake smile I know too well and the polite request for a
small small favour accompanied with my name in honey-ed tones is served up to me.
I don't understand how they don't feel embarassed to pull that kind of stunt. I mean, you act like I don't even exist.
My response?
A thousand yard gaze with a look that said, "Do I know you?".
Because honestly? I don't.
Labels: Life
Lazy Saturdays
Spent the entire of yesterday lying in bed talking, eating in a restaurant - talking, lying in the park eating ice cream - talking, and eating dinner with a friend - also talking.
One of the best ways to waste time in my opinion.
Then I came home and talked to my parents - who are still sticking to their guns and refusing to let me get a dog.
They've worn me down.
Today I shall lie in bed and sleep some more.
Labels: Life
Wishes
I always wanted to go out with a bricklayer for the mere virtue of the fact that he would have good arms. I came to that conclusion because if one is lifting bricks daily, surely his arms would be well toned.
Well, last night my dream came true. I met a bricklayer and he asked me out.
How amazing is that?
I still can't believe it happened.
Labels: Life
Cafe Italia
There's a small cafe off Lygon St in one of the small lanes. I chanced upon it with my cousin last year, which is amazingly late, seeing I've been living in Carlton for the past 4 years (Except the 2 that I was in South Melbourne. So fine,
2 years).
Anyway, it was one of my close friend's birthday last weekend so I decided to buy him dinner to celebrate the ocassion. With an extremely large effort on my part, I have taken photos and am posting them up. Took my computer
ages.
Interior - It was very very dark. The last time I went it was during the daytime, but this was almost pitch black. Couldn't take photos of the food without flash.
Chicken - My main. Some sort of char-grilled chicken with roasted peppers. The peppers were nice - they were actually sweet.
Lamb - Friend's main.
Raspberry Cheesecake - Well, nothing out of ordinary. Cheesecake with raspberries.
Tiramisu - Very very alcoholic.
So there's my first photo post since...donkey years ago. Shall attempt to do more in the future.
All about perseverance.
Labels: Food
Phantom Of The Opera
The Phantom of The Opera is now showing in Melbourne and we went last night to enjoy the show.
The set is lovely. It's amazing how much effort they put in to make such wonderful elaborate scenes for us to enjoy. Just the set itself seems worth the 100 AUD
I my parents had to fork out.
Because I've seen the movie and grew up playing Phantom of The Opera tunes on the piano, I pretty much could sing along to all the songs. I particularly like "All I Ask Of You". It's very nice, even if the lyrics are a little too needy.
Sigh, so cynical.
Anyway, I'm posting up the lyrics because I like it, neediness and all.
RaoulNo more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
My words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dry your tears;
Im here, with you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you.
ChristineSay you'll love me every waking moment;
Turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
Promise me that all you say is true,
Thats all I ask of you.
RaoulLet me be your shelter,
Let me be your light;
Youre safe, no one will find you,
Your fears are far behind you.
ChristineAll I want is freedom,
A world with no more night;
And you, always beside me,
To hold me and to hide me.
RaoulThen say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
Let me lead you from you solitude.
Say you want me with you, here beside you,
Anywhere you go, let me go too,
That's all I ask of you.
ChristineSay you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
TogetherSay the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.
ChristineSay you love me...
RaoulYou know I do.
TogetherLove me, thats all I ask of you.
Love me...
Thats all I ask of you.
Labels: Life
Dental Girl
Sometimes I get tired of being anonymous.
I guess in a way it curbs me from expressing everything that I feel. Like, the readers don't really get to know me. Yet at the same time, perhaps my anonimity
allows me to express exactly how I feel (mainly when I'm bitching about stuff).
There's so many photos that I would love to share with you readers yet I hesitate. Also because my computer is so so slow now loading a photo takes ages, which has greatly reduced my motivation to post photos about my life.
Not that there's many. But still.
Hmm...
Labels: Ramblings
Patients!!
Me: Are you allergic to anything?
Patient: Oh...nothing really. Just women! *chuckling at his own joke*
Labels: Dental School
Cavalier King Charles Spaniels
I really
really really really really really really really really want a dog.
I've had my heart set on getting a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel.
Problem is I stay in a rented apartment, I have a housemate and there's all the financial and time considerations.
I have worked it out and have concluded it is possible for me to get a dog, as long as I can jump over the rented apartment hurdle and the parents hurdle.
The hurdle I fear the most is my parents, to be honest. I can already envision them talking to me about the responsibilities of a student, which does
not include taking care of a dog.
While I'mplotting my evil evil plan to somehow persuade them to let me get one, I have been obsessively looking at other people's Cavaliers, especially
Momo and
Winston.
Sigh... any suggestions?
Labels: Obsessions
Your Money Is...
I was happily surfing around in the lab when I overhead a conversation between a couple in front of me.
Girl: Sigh..I have to pay off my car loan once I graduate. Daddy says he won't pay for it anymore once I earn my own money! *pout*
Boy: Well, I'm sure you'll be able to afford it.
Girl: Yeah I guess so... anyway, you'll be earning money too!
Boy: Yeeesssss.............soooo...?
Girl: Well, your money is my money *matter of fact without batting an eyelash*
Boy: *stricken into silence*
I thought it was funny.
Poor boy.
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