Things I Do To Get Out Of Study
Been surfing the net a lot, looking at random things I would love to have in the future.
1. A home library.
2. Fendi Spy.
3. Leather bound books.
Back to learning about the government polices related to dentistry.
Labels: Obsessions
Mr Thirsty and Mrs Whistle
Currently studying for Paediatry Dentistry now, specifically about child behaviour management.
I am not really a big fan of children.
It's fine if they're well behaved children - but the prospect of having to treat a badly behaved child is distasteful to me. I'm not talking about a child who is so scared they're crying - I'm talking about brats who run around the practice, screaming on top of their lungs - while they're parents sit back and say ,'What a precious precious child'.
Anyway, I find calling the highspeed handpiece Mrs Whistle and the suction Mr Thirsty frankly something extremely difficult to do.
It's
too much.
Labels: Dental School
Spring Has Sprung
I went out for lunch today and realized something.
The trees have leaves.
How is it that I did not even notice it happening until now?
Labels: Life
Shambles
Can't do anything. Just want to curl up into a ball and die.
Labels: Life
Honors List
Today in Dent School, part of the program was to give prizes to students who achieved excellence. Two of my best friends in dent got onto that list - congrats!!
On another note, we were also told about what to expect when we go for our rural placement next year. It sounds very exciting - going to a rural town and practicing there for a month. Looking forward to that.
But for now, just going to study and hope that I live to see next year.
P/S: I can't fit into some of my jeans anymore!! :( Time to really reconsider my monster-like eating habits.
Labels: Dental School
One Down
Finally got over my perio exam today. Wasn't too bad - only thing was that the examiner didn't seem too impressed with my treatment plan. Praying my gibberish that I was trying to articulate is going to be sufficient enough for me to pass.
That leaves me with another 6 papers to go.
On the plus side, no more clinics for 5 weeks!!
Labels: Dental School
Stressed
Went to see what the report about me all about.
Turns out the nurse blamed me for single handedly creating disasters in the cleanup hold. Because of course, all the instruments in there was used by me.
Perio exam tomorrow. Instead of studying, been looking through my patient file obsessively, trying to logicize my not so ideal treatment plans and outcomes.
Can't wait for it to be over.
5 slices of bread with peanut butter = 1000 calories
3 small mandarins = 200 calories
1 small bunch of grapes = 100 calories
1 bowl of cereal with milk = 200 calories
2-3 cups of dry cereal, eaten straight out of the box = 300 calories
2 scoops of ice cream = 200 calories
1 pack of KFC fries = 250 calories
Total = 2250 calories Must. Stop. Eating. But can't seem to stop! In times of stress, it's the only thing I know how to do.
Labels: Dental School, Food, Lists
Can't-Stop-Eating-itis
2 slices of bread with peanut butter and honey - 400 calories
1 pack of Yan Yans - 300 calories
1 pack of Pocky - 200 calories
2 mandarin oranges - 120 calories
1 bowl of Coco Pops with milk - 200 calories
Noodle soup - 600 calories
Total calories = 1820 calories
Yan Yan - an Asian snack. Biscuits in stick form that come with chocolate dipping sauce.
Pocky - chocolate dipped biscuit sticks. Also Asian.
Can't stop eating.
Amount of study done? I just discovered that leaving calculus behind after scaling and root planing can lead to periodontal abscess formation because the pocket tightens after initial therapy, trapping all the leftover bacteria inside, leaving them no choice but to brew in the pocket.
This may explain a lot of things.
Labels: Food
Phoenix From The Ashes
Once in a while you find someone from the past on Facebook and gasp at how much they have changed.
They've gone on some massive diet and suddenly have a whole new fantastic body.
They've gone from prissy schoolgirl to clubbing queen.
Black hair to blonde hair.
School nerd to hottest guy on the campus.
Still in shock.
Labels: Life
Listless
Been trying to study very unsuccessfully.
I think I'm in the process of falling sick. It's been rather strange - I feel cold and shiver the whole day, yet I don't actually have a fever. I've been eating well and haven't really been treating myself
that badly so I have yet to discover the cause of this.
Been lying around in bed watching a lot of Southpark. I think Butters amuse me the most. Cartman just annoys me.
Must attempt to study more in order to make sure I don't fail miserably.
Labels: Health, Life
Fuming
I checked my email looking for new mail and I found an unusual email.
Dear Dental Girl,
We have received a complaint from one of the nursing staff that you have been working unsafely. We take things like this very seriously and would like you to meet the Clinical Coordinator first thing on Monday morning. Thank you.W.T.F.
Then I remembered what happened this morning.
Instruments in the hospital are packed in stainless steel cassettes. Nurses generally want us to keep the instruments IN the cassettes, as opposed to taking them all out.
So I was doing my endo with my rubber dam kit on the bracket table... with Nurse A helping me with suction. She then volunteered to move my endo kit over to the bracket table instead. Except she took out every single instrument and laid it out on the bracket table, instead of just moving the whole kit over.
Whatever. No time to complain. Just continued doing my endo.
Time to close up. Called Nurse B to please help me get some paper points so I could dry my canals. Nurse B huffed but went to get them anyway and stalked off.
Finished the treatment, sent the patient back and set to work to pack up the many many things that I used.
Nurse C (presumably the one who complained) came up and told me off for taking all the instruments out. I told her that
I didnt' do it, someone else did. Then I just proceded to pack everything up in a hurry.
She then said I left my burs in my handpiece, which is unsafe. I just nodded and removed them. She then said my ultrasonic scaler was left uncapped. That was because the stupid cap fell off! I didn't bother to explain - I was already 15 minutes late and my demonstrator was waiting for me to write up my case. I just packed up everything and rushed off.
So technically speaking, the only thing I did wrong was to accidentally leave the stupid bur in the stupid handpiece. Which is a very common error.
I know what it's all about - she's pissed because I appeared to be not listening to her and disrespecting her when in reality, I just had too many things on my mind to actively listen and apologize for all my supposed many transgressions.
Now I have an entire weekend to wait until I get to meet the clinical coordinator who's probably going to give me a lecture on infection control, safety and respect towards nurses.
Just. Great.
Labels: Dental School
Rawwwwwwarr!
One more week and it's the end of the school year - just exams and it's all over! For the year, anyway.
Been very PMS-y lately, eating everything in the fridge and snapping at anything and everything.
Managed to take a couple of PAs that
completely missed the tooth - except 1mm of the distal surface. Demonstrator was not impressed but was nice enough not to tell me I was an idiot.
Anyway, not sure how many dentists/dental students are out there reading this, but I have a Perio question. Why would there be localised bone loss around 35 if there are no occlusal interferences and no restorations??
Labels: Dental School, Ramblings
I'm Trying To Forget That I'm Addicted To...
1. Wholegrain toast with peanut butter and jelly, peanut butter and honey or peanut butter and Nutella.
2. Mandarin oranges.
3. Paddle pops.
4. Cheezels
5. Starbucks' Chai Tea Frappucinos
6. Wedges.
7. KFC's Wicked Wings
8. Yam milk tea with pearls
9. Tim Tams
10. Garlic bread
Labels: Food, Lists
How To Slow Down The Process Of Aging
Read this article on Yahoo!. Shall attempt to follow it.
1.
Change your perception of time. Don't be in a hurry. Check.
2.
Get restful sleep. Double check. Currently averaging at 10 hours a day.
3.
Eat fresh, nutritious food. I do eat 2 mandarins a day now...and yoghurt. Are Cheezels 'nutritious'? They have some form of cheese, don't they?
4.
Take at least two multivitamins with minerals every day. The only vitamins I eat are chewable vitamin C tablets because they taste so good - it's almost like candy.
5.
Practice a mind body technique such as yoga or tai chi. Something to work on.
6.
Exercise regularly. The only exercise I do is scaling the stairs in the dental hospital.
7.
Don't put toxins in your life, including toxic food, toxic emotions, toxic relationships, and avoid toxic environments or toxic relationships. Completely agree with this one. Probably the most important next to diet.
8.
Have a flexible attitude to minor hassles. You mean when I have to run around the entire clinic trying to find one measly cartridge of LA? *through clenched teeth*
9.
Look at so-called problems as opportunities.10.
Nurture loving relationships. This is where a dog would be handy.
11.
Always have an attitude of curiosity, learning, and wonder and spend time with children. Not sure if children would make me feel better or worse.
Lots to work on.
Labels: Lists
3AM
Spent the entire of last night trying to cram every single fact about orthodontics into my small small brain.
When it was impossible to do any more, I went to bed at 3 in my attempt to fall asleep.
Then I experienced what I commonly know as a 3AM irrational panic attack.
It happens in periods of high stress where I lie in bed and start thinking of crazy worst case scenarios and worry about completely irrelevant things to what is the most important thing right now - which is to pass 4th year, of course.
Is my passport expiring soon? How am I going to call my patient and tell her that I've officially kicked her off my patient list? Am I going to be jobless after I graduate? Was it wrong of me to tell my patient that extracting his tooth was the best thing to do? Why did I do what I did 7 years ago? Was buying the
red agenda be right choice rather than some other design?
Etc.
Finally managed to fall asleep only to wake up again today, only to face
more study notes.
Very stressed.
Labels: Life
Once Upon A Time...
Once upon a time I had a very close friend in primary school.
She was one of the best people I ever knew - selfless, caring and generally a nice person all round. Memorably, I coveted a key holder that she had received from her uncle, who had gone to Seaworld and brought it back as a souvenir. It was a liquid hourglass and I loved it so much! Being the shameless person that I
am was, I badgered her to give it to me and at least, she relented.
When I look back, it must have taken her a lot of goodness of heart to let go of something that she treasured that much.
A couple of years later she moved away from Batu Pahat and I never saw her again. Every year for the first few years she would send New Year cards to me, but always without a return address, so I could never reply to them.
Anyway, a few days ago - I found her.
A mutual friend of ours was still in contact with her and I managed to get her email address.
She's still the same. The person I remembered her to be.
Looking forward to the renewal of our friendship.
Labels: Ramblings
Imperfection
Occasionally I write a post ranting about the fact that some self satisfied, egoistic I'm-way-better-than-everyone-else-I'm-always-right has once again demeaned and judged me for my interest in the material world, lack of ambition, shallow thoughts, sleeveless tops (yes, you read right) ...etc.
It's been a few months since I culled them all out of my life - the critics of
my life who just walk in, judge everything and walk out, leaving me feeling like I was the scum of the earth.
Since then I have made less critical friends who accept me for who I am and this has lead me to an epiphany.
The more self-satisfied a person is, the more judgmental the person usually turns out to be. I guess it's because when one thinks one is perfect, it's easy to criticise everyone's actions and weaknesses, writing them off as incapable, ungodly and every other negative thing.
I guess only the people who recognise imperfection in themselves can accept things perfectly.
Labels: Ramblings
Tedium
Several interesting happenings occured this week yet I have no motivation to write them up.
Dentistry is taking over my life.
Every few minutes I'm thinking of more things that I should have done and should already know.
I try not to complain in my effort to remain as optimistic as possible. After all, this is only going to last another 38 days. Then - liberation.
Labels: Ramblings
Walking Contradiction
It really annoys me how some people just contradict people for the absolute sake of it.
Me: It's really cold today.
Person: No it's not! It's warm!
Me: Sigh...uni gets so tiring sometimes.
Person: No it doesn't! Uni is highly enjoyable. How can you think that?
Me: I think yellow would be nice for this.
Person: No. Red would be better.
Etc. The list goes on. And on. And on. And on. And on and on and on and on!
Dental Girl goes to bed and screams into her pillow in sheer frustration.
How Dare He?
My Periodontics patient presentation is in 2 weeks time. I brought my patient in for a review and to give him the scale and clean of a lifetime so that when presentation day comes, his teeth would be sparkling clean.
At least, that was the plan.
Me: Hello, Mr X! How are you today?
Him: Not good.
Noooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Me: What is the problem?
Him: I have a swelling.
Me: As in, an abscess?
Him: Yeah, an abscess!
So turns out there's a periodontal abscess in his mouth. Also, the probing depths have not decreased - in fact, some have actually
increased. Not all sites, mainly at teeth with furcation involvement and 10mm pocket depths.
Did I also mention that he has like...
no oral hygiene habits?
Demonstrator: So, you have a very interesting case. It would be nice to see how you go for the exam.
Me: You mean...when I fail.
Demonstrator: No no...if you rationalize properly you won't fail. Just get ready to be hammered. Hehehe...
Me: ........
Arrrrghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labels: Dental School
Have I Told You Lately That I...
I thought I'd state a few random things about me that may be obvious to some, but perhaps a complete surprise to others.
1.
I can't make decisions. Should I buy that top in red or should I buy it in blue? I can take half an hour standing in front of the two, incapable of making up my mind. Salespeople and shopping partners go crazy. Which is why...
2.
I enjoy shopping alone. I just feel bad making people have to wait around while I take ages to decide if the dress makes me look fat or not... and if that pair of sunglasses I want is
too sunglassy. When I shop alone I can take my time and slowly come to a conclusion.
3.
I can't work a photocopying machine. It's true - although I can do simple page by page copying. Even then, I am never sure... should I put the page in the tall way or the long way? Always confused. Anything more than that is beyond me and I need help.
4.
I don't eat seafood. Yes. The fishy taste is just not my kind of thing.
5.
I like my eggs half-boiled.
6.
I sleep on my side.
7.
I wanted to be a bank teller. It's true. I used to go to the bank with my mom when I was young and I told my mom that being a bank teller must be fun - pretty much just processing stuff in an air-conditioned environment. How nice and genteel. Mom wasn't impressed.
8.
Anything to do with saliva makes me sick. I know - how am I in dentistry then? When the patient spits, I turn away. Seeing them spit out just makes me nauseated. When the saliva ejector is at work, I just attempt to tune out and pretend it's
not saliva.
9.
I love Beauty and The Beast. That's my favourite Disney cartoon ever. I could sing along to it forever. Lol.
10.
I eat really slowly. This is a fairly recent development that I did not realize until my friend illustrated the act of me eating. Apparently I'd pick up my fork and spoon slowly, take up half a spoonful of food, eat it slowly... and put the fork and spoon down. Talk about something for like half a minute, wasting precious precious time that I could spend better eating. Repeat. Apparently it gets quite annoying. I swear I'm not doing it on purpose though, and I could eat faster if I wanted to. It's not like we're going anywhere, are we? The irony is that I used to be a really fast eater. Not sure what happened.
Labels: Ramblings
All Things Mystical
I'm not sure if I ever mentioned it on this blog before, but I'm what you would describe a rather superstitious person.
I love reading my horoscope daily. It's just one of those things I indulge in. Fortune cookies too.
I particularly love it when the prediction comes true. Of course, it's usually something so vague you can make it sound like it came true. Whatever.
I guess I just like the idea of predestination.
Labels: Ramblings
Over You
So addicted to this song right now!! Not that it has any significance in my life, but I think it would be a really good break up anthem.
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you - Daughtry
Labels: Lyrics
Music History
Scrolled through my entire song list today in my effort to create the best playlist for studying.
I rarely get past the first 1000 songs - but today I persevered and got to the end.
With each title I could remember the phases of my life that were associated with the music I listened to. Disney soundtracks... Hilary Duff (yes, Hilary Duff. So sue me)... boybands, Green Day, 90s love ballads...
According to my music list and the emotions that stirred up with each new song I clicked on, I have concluded that I want to be back in -
The present. There's no better place to be.
Labels: Life
Aaarrrghhhhh!!!!
18 subjects. 47 days to the end of exams. 20 days to the first paper.
How am I going to survive?!
Labels: Dental School
Haircut
You know that you have definitely earned my trust when I let you cut my hair.
One of my best friends in dentistry had the
honour horror of cutting my fringe last week and I must say she passed the trust test with flying colours.
My fringe is now... fringe-y.
:)
Labels: Life
Killer Shoes
So I bought a pair of flats last semester and wore it once.
One day and it caused massive blisters and severe pain. I shelved it and never wore it again.
I tried to give it a second chance a week ago. Arming myself with band aids I concluded that surely that shoe won't be able to thwart me
this time.
Wrong - all I did was create new blisters. Till now I'm still nursing a massive one that refuses to go away.
It's over between us.
Labels: Life
Carousel
I went up to the Dandenong Hills a few months ago.
I had always wanted a musical carousel for myself. It's just one of those things I always wanted. Anyway, up there many stores sold these touristy knick knacks and one in particular caught my eye. It played 'When You Wish Upon A Star' - suitable for me on so many levels and it also costs quite a bit...almost AUD 200 or something along those lines.
Because I was at that time penniless thanks to my then recently purchased Gucci portfolio, I decided to leave it where it was - on the shelf.
I still think about it off and on.
I wonder if it's still there?
Labels: Life
